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30/12/2006

Decade

If I am exiling sentiment recklessly
If I am treating inexpensive words as incumbency
If I am describing error incessantly
If I do like whitewashing the pledge to be graying color
Who is able for me to explain when bordered on the magnesium lamp the tears with sob I parsimoniously flowing out
Who is able to explain the frail echo for me merely to pause 1 4/7 second silencing

 

Pays no attention you whether could remember
Pays no attention you whether had the memory to
Pay no attention you whether feigned joyfully
Likes that early morning hope with gloomy vision connects in your eye
I had already to been peacefully chosen cafard
 
White mark ever not bloomed the romantic movement;
Blue pupil was fantasizing aquatic bird dwells along the shore
Pouring to hope is the ice-cold rivers in elated
Gloomy expression also accompanies your cry
Stop in the side I only could feel your breath
Cannot read out beside the breath a wisp affection
Although I just experienced outside the great distance the wind and rain
 
All stand and wait for a long time like the sandglass ‘s tranquility
 
Yesterday’s deep lingering, you will have capillary and smooth share, have generous and frustrated wandering
Tomorrow‘s looking out you to have fragmented and wind disconsolation , have tender and desolate barnyard
 
That flash , I only are the language third personal——subject did not know White slipper , graceful skirt  the earth admiring his soil
Thin chopsticks, fragrant tea you in my opposite, also distance
Shadow bamboo shines through my one meal also has its happy
 
Perhaps to your love may not be despised , although I had ossified carve
Have no fetters, brightly fall the green thinking
If also have wish, to remember told the bay cherry goddess
Her tear, had you forgotten?
21/12/2006

The waiting is the life initial old

等待是一生最初的苍老
 
天空 叠着层层的思念
 
我本来以为 自由就会是一个魅影萦绕不去
那些蓝色的记忆 如同比诺什的指尖旋律
指尖还有什么 记得我说过的吗 还有流沙
流沙如感情 我想得到又抓不住 只能一粒粒看他飞扬
 
蓝色 多么无瑕的名字
他流淌在我心田的每一个角落 闪耀着自私的清香
自由 多么诱惑的畅想
宛如那凋零的玫瑰 我只想要一朵白色玫瑰 一朵小小的花
 
灰暗的天空 忧郁的听着雨声
每一天都有我对你的思念 变成一缕青丝
支离在晦暝的霜雪间
 
牵着你的手 整个世界都在为我摇曳
宇宙的眩晕 将微微的灯光纷乱
商徵的铭刻 就像我要纹下的唇线
 
暖暖地照着墨痕 醉里听到一点悠扬
凋零不尽的愁 是夜色
寸寸相思的枫叶 如同长日将消的一个暮色 
 
沉香屑里轻慢的燃烧 升起冷冷的煎熬
会有人在世界的另一端 悠暗的烛台下 写满篇的你
会有人在世界的另一端 盼你在琴声中回来
拆开那素色的信笺 去阅读一生等待的苍老
 
王小波说过的:“我不要孤独,孤独是丑的,令人作呕的,灰色的。我要和你相通,共存,还有你的温暖,都是最迷人的啊!
可惜我不漂亮。可是我诚心诚意呢,好吗我?我会爱,入迷,微笑,陶醉。好吗我?……”
“只是说我自己现在好像那一位害了相思病的愁容骑士。”
“我会不爱你吗?不爱你?不会。爱你就像爱生命。”
 
是的,所以,我等待

 

The waiting is the life initial old
 
Sky folds layer upon layer missing
I originally thought free can be a shade cannot linger
These blue memories, similar to Binoche’s fingertip melody
Fingertip also to have any, to remember I had said, also has the wind-drift sand
Wind-drift sands like sentiment, I want to obtain but cannot hold, only can grain of look they flying upwards
 
The blue color, the name without any flaw
He flows to the free reign in my heart each quoin, sparkling selfish fragrance
Free, what an entices imagination
Like that on the wane rose, I only to want a white rose, a small and small flower
 
The gloomy sky, melancholy listens to the rain sound
Every day I turn a wisp silver hair for you, for my missing  
As fragmented in the frost and snow
 
Pull your hand, entire world all drags for me
Universe dizziness, makes slight light chaotic
Inscribing the melody, as the lip line tattooed by me
 
Warmly blaze the ink trace, when drunk hears melodious sounds
Waneless worrying will be twilight
Lovesickness maple leaf, will be similar to daylight disappears evening
Eaglewood filings are mention-lightly burning, raises chill suffering
Some people in the world another end is writing all over you, under long-drawn-out dark candlestick
Some people in the world another end is hoping you come back in the tweedle Disassemble that plain-colored the letter, to read the life waiting old
 
Wang Xiaobo had said: "I do not be lonely, lonely is ugly, makes one sick, pessimistic. I must be interlinked with you, coexistence, but also has your warmth, all is most enchanting!
I am what a pity unattractive. But I sincerely, I can like, fascinate, smile, and infatuate.
Only I present looked like an anxious look knight getting lovesickness sick.

Won’t I love you? Not love you? Cannot. To love you is like to love the life."

 

Yes, therefore, I waited for

 
16/12/2006

Soar

箫声响起了,那些紫色的风信子,散落着悲剧的芬芳
还有海水,海水被谁倾倒出来了,来了
带着你的力量,我的呼喊:再一次推开那扇门吧,用灭生老茧的双手
至于闪烁,就像两扇排风一样,呼啸着挥散翅膀
 
那些卷起的尘埃,还在我的目光里徘徊
至于闪烁,就像鼠标的空塘一样
你的影子怎么这样蜿蜒,筹光到最后一滴琼浆
美酒阿,你是我的眼泪吗;还是她,背影的凄凉
 
如果不能做我的桂冠,何必做我的面纱
风怒的黄土,还会把泪水掩埋
你转身走开,留下一个世界的空漠
那残云的夜宴,谁来和我独享
 
最爱的人呐,我宁愿就这样一直等你
等你到最后的空空幻灭
等你到依稀的云蒸霞蔚
等你到退却的烟雾袅袅
等你到冷却的路途迢迢
 
你是最后的世界,是沉静的梦魇
你是封闭的那种语言,是雨天的流浪
 
流浪,是你曾经的爪印
向往,是我想你的飞翔
 
Soar
The flute sound got up, these purple hyacinthus orientalis, scatter the tragedy fragrance
The sea water, the sea water is fallen by who, came to bring
With your strength, my shouting: Shoves open that leafed door once again, with the fresh callus hands
As for glitter, like two leaf of row of winds to be same, howls is wielding disperses the wing
 
These tuck dust, also paces back and forth in mine vision
As for glitter, like the mouse spatial pond
How wind  your shadow is like, to drunk last the drop of fine wine
Good wine , you are my tear; Or her, back misery
If cannot make my laurel crown, why makes my veil
Anger loess, can bury the tears
You turn around to get out of the way, stay behind a deserted world
That remnant of evening banquet, who comes and enjoys with me
 
Best love, I'd rather to wait for you
to wait for you to everything is empty
to wait for you to steam the rosy cloud to the vaguely cloud
to wait for you to the smog which retreats
to wait for you to the cooling journey far away
 
You are the final world, the quiet nightmare
you are the seal language, are rainy day roaming
 
Roam about, was you once sigil
Yearne for, was my thought your soaring
11/12/2006

脑海中的橡皮擦

当迷糊的秀贞把钱包和可乐忘在了便利店,再回头去找,却和一个流浪汉一样的人撞在了一起,她瞪着大眼睛,看着他手里正拿着可乐,便以为是他偷了她的可乐,她赌气似的一把夺过哲洙手中的易拉罐,咕咚咕咚地喝了个底朝天,并意犹未尽地打了一声嗝。
随后,当她看到便利店员把她的东西还给她,才突然知道自己误会了刚才那个邋遢的陌生人。
然后,第二次见面,她以为哲洙不记得她了,可是哲洙却突然抢过她刚刚从自动售货机中取出的可乐一饮而尽,并像模像样地学着秀贞也打了一个很响的嗝。
从无望等待的火车站到充满温馨的便利小屋,不声不响地将两个陌生男女的相遇交接在一起,缘分与画面彼此呼应,而那一刻的温情,竟然如此的妙不可言。
   
可是,健忘的秀贞那手提袋里无数的铅笔早就已经给故事埋下了伏笔,尽管她和他终于结婚,哲洙也从一个不名的木匠考上了建筑师。婚后的生活让昔日空荡的小木屋充满了温馨与快乐,秀贞天真与美好的善良,更让哲洙慢慢懂得了这世界上有很多东西需要宽容地面对。
但是,慢慢的,秀贞原本糟糕的记性却越来越不好了,甚至转瞬就忘掉了刚刚发生的事情,连回家的路也变得陌生,从秀贞的离奇举止,到装了满满两份饭却没有盛菜的便当,哲洙一点点发现了秀贞不对劲的地方。
医生解答了他的迷惑,她得了一种很罕见的病——阿兹海默症,眼前的记忆隔天就会烟消云灭,而且持续下去的话,她甚至会忘了自己眼前人到底是曾经呓语的爱人还是一个陌生的访客。  她的生命中曾经到过美丽的地方,也曾经和心爱的人大醉过一场,可是当本应有的铭记变成了遗忘,生命的意义原来都是凄芜的荒凉。

  秀贞痛苦地问哲洙:“听见那些话了吗?”
  “什么话?”哲洙轻轻地说。
  “说我脑中,有橡皮擦。我们分手吧。”秀贞的肩膀颤抖着,悲戚地说。
  “你在说什么?”
  “我马上就会忘掉所有的事。连你为什么会在我身边也不知道。你会从我的头脑里消失。我也会消失!明白我的话吗?记忆消失的话,灵魂也会消失的!我,害怕……我,害怕……”
  “灵魂为什么会消失?都让我来承担,知道吗?我就是你的记忆,你的灵魂。” 哲洙安慰着秀贞。
  
记忆消失,灵魂也会消失。泪水模糊了曾经的爱和如今的渺茫,秀贞与哲洙,太平盛世里末路的爱人,如恋恋风尘中迷离的蝴蝶,在铭记与遗忘的夹隙中寻找着爱的自由,他们没有永久,没有明天可以停留。他们相爱,可是记忆让他们无法厮守。
为了延缓秀贞记忆的消褪,哲洙所写的便条挂满了他们的屋子。辅以唯美的影像和动听的音乐,悲伤却也这样慢慢蔓延开来。那个为了阿兹海默症耗尽一生精力的老医生说他妻子在死的前三天,他带妻子去他们初识的地方,妻子什么都记起来了,他都以为她好了.可是结局却是死亡。而秀贞和哲洙,他们试图固守着彼此爱的记忆,可是,一切又显得那么的无能为力。
因为无法拥有回忆,为了不再让爱人伤心,秀贞决定离家出走。只是在很久以后她才写了一封信给哲洙,她告诉他:“那时候在便利店我抢了你的可乐是......可口可乐。初吻的地方是在弘益大学的小酒蓬,先求婚的人是......我。看到了吗?我记得很好吧?不用担心我。我祈祷着,只是不要忘记我们曾爱过的记忆......

或许鱼的记忆只有7秒,7秒之后便又是一个隔世的轮回,7秒之后忘掉曾经的声色光影,重新投入到一个新的世界里安身立命。可是没人知道鱼到底是否快乐,如果可以选择,它是否真的愿意忘记7秒前曾经与另一条鱼擦身而过,愿意割舍7秒前曾经嬉戏熟悉的水池泽国。

 

你在铭记与忘却之间穿行的瞬间,看着这繁华的风景与似真似幻的光线,看着那旧日的光阴沉淀成一缕轻烟,一切都是那么的熟悉可是又那么的陌生,她的心是否亦平静如昔。这些日子,你一个人,拖着长长的影子,仿佛一条美丽的鱼,寂静地游荡,可是还会相忘于江湖吗?

人的记忆是一种很奇怪的载体,往往你越想忘的越不会忘记,越想铭记的却越是慢慢变得不再明晰。于是,有的时候,重新开始一次也许是最好的选择。你曾经寻觅着可以遗忘的良方妙药,我也是一样。似乎真的可以让快乐从忘记开始。而忘记真的好像比铭记更困难,就像结束比开始更让人心潮澎湃。尽管如此,我却依然钟情于这个关于铭记的故事,以及在茫茫人海中关于铭记与忘记的这一幕幕洞彻心扉的浪漫与温柔。  

 

虽然,那么多人已经宁愿去选择遗忘。而我该怎样去形容这样一部关于铭记与忘记的电影?用文字或者语言去表述它?抑或只是沉默地再看一次。也许,当我试图在铭记与遗忘的瞬间写下一行文字,其实有些记忆就已经悄悄溜走,可是,我知道,尽管纷杂的人生与萧条的大雨,注定洗涤我们的梦境与现实,但我们依然无法摆脱如何选择铭记与忘记的困扰。

在记忆的洪荒中,其实我们每个人都走在铭记与遗忘的边缘,哪怕只是些梦境、哀愁、离人和故乡,一年一年的雨水以及早已变换青春的模样。《东邪西毒》里说:当你不能拥有的时候,你唯一能做到的就是让自己不再遗忘。不知道什么时候开始,自己也慢慢沉溺于细微的回忆之中,可当那些不能可能再拥有的时光匆匆而去,才发现试图挽留它们的文字以及图片,原来,都只是一场刻舟求剑。原来,在空旷的生活中,我们无论怎样都无法完整记录,而闪过心神的恍惚,亦不过是自给自足的荒芜。

时光不再,只是,幸好还有一息尚存的回忆让我们可以重回那些去过的老地方,牵着已经离散的爱人的手去指点片片星光,那片天空与高大的白杨树还在记录着我们的故事,刻下我们曾经留下的身影,以及粉身碎骨般的爱恋。橡皮可以擦去日记本上的字迹,但却擦不去那些早已经力透纸背的印记。虽然鱼有7秒的回忆,可重要的是,只要下一个7秒我们还在一起,我们还有新的回忆可以铭记。

也许,这就是回忆给我们的礼物,假如我们也会遗忘,但至少我们曾经一起哭过,一起笑过,一起到过那些美丽的地方。假如我们也会遗忘,但只要这一刻的铭记还在让彼此相爱的人厮守身旁,幸福的模样也会在我们本来空无一物的脑海里徜徉。

当你走开的时候,请告诉我,阿兹海默式症的遗忘你没有带走,你会记得我,无论我多么微小,好吗?我学着你的样子,用格利耶的橡皮擦去记忆,可是我发现那些画面——原来都已喷上了定画液。你与爱你,我永远无法抹去的。
03/12/2006

Those Nondescript

那些莫名
世界上最远的距离不是生离死别,而是我在你旁边,你却不知道我爱你。
张小娴这样说

“女人是一种语言,你只能对她说,却不能准确地说出她。”
也许就在离开之后
每次想她,左边胸口就有隐隐的疼痛
鱼相忘于江湖,人相忘乎道术
选择遗忘是容易的;但真的遗忘却根本做不到
水的模样,总是给我最后的向往
可是你,从不在意过那些旧时的音乐

如果生命只剩下两天,会一天用来希望,一天用来绝望吗?
还是,如往常那样,对着你的照片发呆
或者……再把那些揉碎的情话,一一说给你听
 
记得张爱玲在给胡兰成的照片后面写着这样的话:
见了他,她变地很低很低,低到尘埃里,但她是满心喜欢的,从尘埃里开出花来。
我何尝不是呢
 
羞日遮罗袖,愁春懒起妆。
易求无价宝,难得有情郎。
枕上潜垂泪,花间暗断肠。
自能窥宋玉,何必恨王昌。 
看着《唐朝豪放女》,听起夏文汐的话
鱼玄机的诗讲的没错,只是你想要的美丽,我却没能给你
崔博候骑着马杀入很多人中间 马还在不停的跑 他伸出一只手 要拉鱼玄机上马 
而鱼玄机只是站在那里 一动不动,痴笑 只是对着崔博候笑
那样一种感情,让她淡然到麻木  那么你呢?
 
是你得到的太多,而黯淡了真爱
还是我本不该 闯入这个世纪
抑或太眷恋某些人的天帝,从未对我有所垂青
而只能让我在冷夜里,对着矮墙怅惘到破晓
 
让我怎样来证明,时间的绝域只是我留给自己想你的一断化境?
看着银杏的叶子一片一片飘下,走在清脆的黄色上面
心中空空的,除了想你,想你,想你,想你,想你,想你,想你,想你,想你……
Those Nondescript
In the inexplicable world the farthest distance is not parts forever, but is I nearby you, you did not know I love you.
Zhang Xiao Xian said like this
"The woman is one language, you only can say to her, cannot accurately say her."
Perhaps after leaving
each time miss her, left side the chest has the faint ache
The fish forgets to the rivers and lakes, the person to forget the Taoist
choice to forget is easy; but really forgets actually cannot achieve
the water appearance, always gives me final yearning for
but you, ever has paid no attention these old times music

If only left over two days in the life, meets one day to hope, one day to despair?
Or, as peacetime, treat your picture to be in a daze
or... ... break up those love-words again , and said to you
Remembered Zhang Ailing behind the picture giving to Hu Lancheng wrote such speech:
Saw him, she has changed very low and low, lowers to the dust in, but she was is filled with likes, opened the results from the dust.
 
Did you obtain too many, and dimed ture love
or I might not intrude this century
or God loves some people too much, so never looks upon me with favor
but only can let me in the cold night, to low wall ,from listless until daybreak
How let me prove that, the time aera only is I remained for oneself to miss you as soon as to break the stage of perfection?
Looked the gingko leaves piece of piece fluttered, walked above the clear yellow
in the heart empty, except miss you,miss you,miss you,miss you,miss you,miss you,miss you,miss you... ...